My 21st...

Now only I'm being awake from the dream I had for 21 years. My life was terrible for the day :(( If you follow my blogs, I was so unhappy dealings with clubs. However, I have no choice but to DO. The week before my birthday, I was so sad until I cried in front of my friends. On the day before my birthday, I was half recovering. But, there is no way to be done. Another telephone that will always making me down. OMG!!! It was terrible!!!! On 12am, sharp!!! Not ex-bf...is the impossible ones!! Huh!!! idiot lagi lo...who else!

The day will not simple end like this, I was alone for my b'day. Although it was on my own, freeness is better than been disturb. I done everything that need to be done. Finish my studies...happily go on bus to Aikido Seminar ^^ But, on my last few hours of the day was destroy! My mood flies! Know what happen?? I wish it don't happen anyway....but my hope will never be real. ...haih.... A guy which I always don;t hope to celebrate my b'day with me will always appear on my b'day. He is sending me to hell! ..I'm thinking of getting off my seat and say 'could you stop everything..'. Nothing did I do, I continue blowing the candle, cut the cake blah blah blah~ For a sudden, I feel it is not been me anymore. ..being a weak women who do not know how to say NO. ...have no more personality... OMG!! Could someone help me??? Please....kao meng ah!!! Not only the celebration that making me fet up, its HIM!!! Could you stop getting close to me?? He like to sit beside me. OK...its fine to me. But then, please stop getting closer and closer. Even though I shifted my chair he stilllll........ aaaaahhhhhh!!!! I'm thinking of slaping him lo...what the H_LL!!!

This is the first birthday that I had never ever had for being so fet up! One of my non- close friend notice it. He was just like so quiet at the corner. HAHA...his reaction was funny! ..angry lo, did not rescue me. Huh!! Anyway never mind, I have no choice I know. So, should I say my birthday was terrible?? ...haih....hope not to remember :( ..wish there is no celebration then to celebrate...but its too late now.

Anyhow, I still have a happy thing on the day. Mum give me a key chain ^^ I did not get any b'day present before. My 21st will be the first. TQ! So the next present from mother...i think will be on my wedding lo! wahahaha!!! How came my 21st only have this happiness! Its really terrible horrible!