Life Passion....

Receiving a comment from my friend, I realized that I'm going bad to worst. I wasn't me anymore. Was it good or bad? Being so kept to myself, do everything by myself, making myself having a though life, being narrow minded..leads to being so emo! I'm a optimistic person, hope for everything. ...quite a stupid thinking... May be I should change...change to be more flexible and suit the environment. ;)


Going up and down the hills for just seconds.. Found that my EQ had gone down that I cannot even control it. This call...'low standard'. ..haih... Now, its time for me to turn around be a 'Sabrina' creating a magic on myself to make it prefect then ever. O_o ...Patient, rational, wisdom and wit..please came back to me!


Okey..please stop damping unhappy stuff here. Look into happy stuff today. :) ..hm...seldom have happy moment to be written in my blogger. HAHA! Lets make the change here and NOW!

Friday, I had my club appreciation dinner at City Bayview hotel. Yaahoo! It was great...greater then what I expected.Even my club adviser was so happy about it. Unfortunately, I going to leave the club soon. Its a unforgettable moment with all the members. Seeing the club grow, be prosperous, be active, getting wide spread and so on. Its my pleasure...! Especially the Penang trip to USM, I know more about all the members. :) MASUM games also..although there is only 4 of us. I feel the spirit that flash on all of us. Still remember the luxury van that fetch us to the squash court? We was so curious on the price, facilities, blah blah blah~ on the van...haha! Even the video thingi can scan rats...lalala~ haha! The supportive spirit that I have not had since I leave Penang squash team. Hopefully, next year, there still a chance for me to represent the University. ;)


Yesterday night..'haha' was a funny moment! Being a pro consultant! This is my first time giving advise to people... Been so emotional for almost 1 week can still cool myself down and give rational analysis. Walao...I found that I been upgraded! ...up level lo... Hehe..bluek! Tak tau malu...puji sendiri. The problem was complicated...ops not just complicated...is very triple complicated! HAHA! Question arise was whether being a third party to a couple relationship is a wrongful act in the 21st century or even the in age of 20s. No answer for that...right? Want to know what answer I give him? Recall back...it is an infinity answer. :P It just voice down to your own philosophy ...and the perceptions. if you have any answer for this brilliant question...do tell me. :)

Friendship are nonsense

It is undeniable that everyone need friends. The more the better. Question came into my mind was...more hi-bye friends is better or just one best friend is more then enough. I was so sad that I realize that I don't even have a best friend by my side when I need a hand. ...really bad... To all my friend, I have many friends in campus. Anywhere I go, there will be people entertaining or speak to me. But, that was all hi-bye friends. How came...I had came to the end stage like this? Is that too emo? =_=" I wanted to actually relies myself by tell my close friend in campus, but she was also in the same situation today. So, I also fail to forward the news to her and being a consultant again. ..haih... I also need help la...


Yesterday, the event was not smoothly conduct on the public demonstration. I was so disappointed that even my friends did not came and support me. Just a word ..assignment then it gone off. Seems like I'm so free to do everything. Ya...I'm too free nothing to do...very kepoh too to organize such an event and make myself susah! Make myself busy..and seok sendiri! What the hell is that?! ..really fet up about it... There are even people peeping at the back of the hall and not coming in... Its you university, you have the freedom to walk wherever you want. Alamak! Its really...'no' 'no'...i don't know what!


Feeling abit fet up with life. Too busybody, too talkative, too narrow minded...everything la... I really need a breath....too emo again! God bless me!

Upgraded!

During the mock presentation on Thursday, I actually did not prepare much. Just kind of searching some cases and applying statues for argument. I did not expect the result to be so...anyway I'm happy about that. :) The lecturer told me that I had improve....I was so happy for the whole night! Wahaha! Last few weeks, she was just criticizing me and wanted me to go on a consultation under her. Wow...that seems terrible! I did not expect I went down so....... Now, I calming up again. Sometime, I will be the ONE.. :)



After class, I went for some activity. Guess who I saw? Its really making me very shock. Seeing a guy which will not talk to me in class, campus nor in his own office. ...hm... It was shock that he came to my back and talk to me. What he trying to do? Did the gossip make rumors...that he believe all the words? Am I creating a doubt for him? Question marks was all around my head...please find me an answer for it. Haih....



...being so tired of organizing events...the day had came! Tomorrow, the event is starting. I really don't know how it will be...what problem will arise...what what and what? Must be patient to wait for the hours to pass, and go though by myself. It must go step by step... Cool, cool...it won't be that bad. Hopefully, it will be as successful as Squash club. :)

Work ended TODAY.. start TODAY!

...haih.... At last, it ended my job in squash club. I slept for almost 5 hours after the MMU Closed. Really very happy! :) Gila...lost the match to Airini also so happy.... But, I'm really very happy. haha! Now, I'm looking forward only for the appreciation dinner. Must have a good day...no time to miss. Wahaha...sound greedy ar....its the real scene, my style. Hehe!

The only thing left now is Aikido club. Hopefully, it will go smooth as what I expect. But, till now, many problem arises. Anyway, if the problem raise now, better then on the last minute. So, I have time to think about it. The thing I'm unhappy is the co-operation of the committees. Its very disappointed to see committees do not work hard to success the program. I did not really expect much from them but there are still some standard that should be maintain. Really don't understand what their mind is thinking. Just a small job to attend, this cannot that cannot... If I'm the one who cannot, what will the program be? I really very tired of organizing the event or even organizing a meeting to finalize all the stuff. We need opinion, raise several circumstances and many more to be solve. However, the manner that they give me is "YOU DECIDE EVERYTHING LA~" What is this?? You see Pah Lah only watch what his minister do the job by quarreling in the newspaper between themselves. He only talk when the discussion ended. For my situation, from the beginning to the end, all my session. ...hem....

Last few days, there is also some discussion on the friendship between my friends. Its really surprise to know law student. ...... =_=" Gossip and 'stupid' stories were make up to destroy people's mental illness. That was fun! Really FUN and FUNNY! In the 21century, there is nothing better then 'mental game'. Its right to say 'NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE". I really don't understand. Is law subject too easy? You don't need to study...you have plenty of time to predict your steps. ...I wrote before that I only want safe friend and not dangerous friend. If you really do not like to be my 'safe' friend, then please get out of my life. I have many things that need to be complete, no time must be waste on you. Seriously, I treat my friends all from my heart. I don't have many friends, I only belief in myself. Its not a big deal not to have friend. One friend for me is more then enough. Because my life is on my own and not for others. Please...I would like this to be ended, the war shall not involve me.

'A MI TOU HUT'.....hopefully this end soon... So that I can slept as much as possible. wahahaha!! Love my bed so much. Love my home bed more... :P

Nightmares again...

phew!! One down another one up... I hate that! It start from giving consent on being the president of squash club is already a challenge for me. I don't have any ability to be that high. Bad feeling came one by one, that I had to cry all night to reduce the impact. Now, I am FREE!!! Having a successor, I will not be a failure anymore.

Leaving squash club to others had already free my life, but there is another club who offer me the job. OMG!!! I really getting mad of it. Its really not a good job for me nor an enjoyment thing out of it. The only thing I gain is the event that making up my time. I really sick of it. Would like to prefer having a restless day, stick myself on the bed the whole day, going shopping with friends on the weekend is better than discussing club's activity. Please, I really do not like the job. Do give the job to others that have the interest out of it. I would like to stop. Preferable to have a boyfriend than having a club to fill up my time. Really embarrassing to be single in the age of 21. So....joining club did not really help to get me a partner....HAHA! Seems like I'm so desperate to have one. Every girl would like to be attractive, so do I. Hehe....

Hopefully, I would not get the job in the coming trimester....blah blah blah~ Pray for me ya...hehe!

Gentleman...

What actually the meaning of gentleman?? Its really a doubt for me as a female... Nowadays, I seldom see men acting like a men...unlikely there is still some who sounds so 'pondan'. Not helping female with their weeknesses or even give a hand on it. They are just as useless as women to say a word 'NO TIME...BUSY....OTHER THINGS GOING ON...Blah Blah Blah' As technology change, human characters must also change. Is that logic?

21st century, men and women are said to be equel. How logic must it be? 50% or 70%?? To me, women and men are not equal add all. If they were same, then men should wear skirt also. Why not? Modern --> fasion.

Its sad to see male had gone to this step that they are not known as 'heroes' anymore. The leads must always be an example to secure the main characteristic of a MALE. Therefore, please don't follow the one that you are not suppose to.

Li-Li La-La day

No emotion, no sadness, no everything from the morning till late evening. It was just an assumption for a good day. Morning having exam which gone blank when I saw the exam sheet, it did not destroy my mood. In a serious thing like exam did not even make me down. Unfortunately, something that unexpected happen. An authorizes person had fail to upload the thing for me. I was so frustrated when I checked it. Only now, I notice that I was wrong for the whole day being so... Looks idiot, wanted to change things but things won't change just by your instruction.

Having headaches on exam is already a BIG burden. Please....don't make my life so terrible because of you. I really don't mean to be, but I really feel fet up now!