Unknown Romance

Months ago, just a click....he hold me alive!

It was so secure lying on his big big shoulder...

The moment he rub my short brown hair, was lovely...

Deepest, he pluck me in, getting me so warm and comfortable!

...a feeling that never end!

Now, his shadow is gradually getting further and untouchable.

I no longer could feel his heartbeat which awake me, starting up my day with a smile.

I keep on looking and reading at those previous messages...to hold myself firm.

And...I know pretty sure that he is not here anymore longer.

A decision to leave was hard....but I will have to move on with life.

I will have to control my destination....to my dreams~

A word that I dislike the most "Goodbye". *tears flooding*

A straight road or a slanting road?

Chambering completed , it should be "HOORAY"!! .... its time to leave, to run on a better career track. I feel all the stress all around me. I'm not competent enough to be marketable, I know it myself! Anyhow, I need to learn how to swim without my master's guidance.

Finally, I stand the pressure until the end of the day! I'm super happy that I could leave the most sadness place (Penang) anytime I wish. As what I plan months before......

I then bravely applied jobs from varies place. Its all on the process and....guess what? I got all with good replies even with immediate interview. I suppose to be happy and looking forward for the interviews instead....I feel the pressure to be so grave! .....feel like something stuck on my throat.

Going to a dark jungle.....

No doubt that I take into consideration of my love one but I can't be leaving my footstep behind...right? One day or some how, the end may not be as what I expected or some obstacle fall on us. I did try my very best to keep this wonderful....I will have no regrets. Sound stupid uh? But i just miss him, miss him so much....

I need more bravery to go further, can anyone tell me where can I get this power? I'm not greedy, just a little, as little as a bite of kiss...

Just a hug, could let me run more than a mile....this is more grateful love are.....!!!