Why why why? I don't want the memories anymore!!! Can anyone make me drunk? OMG!!! I'm having a terrible time!!!I HATE you, Mr Pang Jeng Min!!! Why you give me so much of the memories that I don't deserve it?? Now, I'm straggling so hard to get myself out.
My 2 years was not easy though, I tough I could do it. Only now, I realize I didn't do it in a clean and clear way. All the feeling came back without my control. I have no appetite to eat, cannot concentrate in my work, cannot focus well, cannot sleep etc. And, I wonder why I cannot drop my tears anymore? Did I finish my tears during the 2 years? aaaahhhhhh!!!!! Release ME!!!
I think I'm now feeling what he felt for the last 2 years. Now, I understand what my friends was explaining to me..."feng shui lun leow juan".
Anyhow, I have to get my own way out as what he did in the pass. I cannot be that selfish and greedy anymore. Its me who make the choice. GAMBETTE HENG JIA LIAN!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Why I have hard feelings?
wow...it being along time since I have my attachment, too busy to even login.
Now, having trouble, so seek space to express myself. ^.^
Start to realize that I'm a normal girl as well.
Last few days, I knew that my ex have a girlfriend already. At first I felt so happy for him, because I will not be the one anymore. I'm release!! However, bad feeling start developing before I go to bed. I don't know why. ...still love him or I'm being too greedy? I'm the one who is too selfish to bring myself back. And now.... Aiyo!!! I'm getting really mad!!!
Just after the break-up, I pray so hard for him to get his love one as soon as possible because I don't deserve all the things that he do for me. While, hope that in future he will be happier. But, now... OMG!! I don't know what should I do.
Anyway, I will continue praying for him and wish him all the best. Hope that he have the best of the best forever. ^^
Now, having trouble, so seek space to express myself. ^.^
Start to realize that I'm a normal girl as well.
Last few days, I knew that my ex have a girlfriend already. At first I felt so happy for him, because I will not be the one anymore. I'm release!! However, bad feeling start developing before I go to bed. I don't know why. ...still love him or I'm being too greedy? I'm the one who is too selfish to bring myself back. And now.... Aiyo!!! I'm getting really mad!!!
Just after the break-up, I pray so hard for him to get his love one as soon as possible because I don't deserve all the things that he do for me. While, hope that in future he will be happier. But, now... OMG!! I don't know what should I do.
Anyway, I will continue praying for him and wish him all the best. Hope that he have the best of the best forever. ^^
Monday, October 13, 2008
Pass or Credit hours?
Passing the exam or the collection of credit hours for legal attachment, which one is important? Now, it confuse me. Everyone was telling me you have acheive 72 credit hour, only need to pass one of the subject to go for attachment. Is that the theory of being a student?
All exams, I try my best to attempt the question.
All exams, I try to finish all question in time.
All exams, I try to take care of my health and not to skip the exam.
This hardwork had follow me for 14 year of my 'student' days. And now, friends tell me. Never mind, you can definitely go for your attachment. ....how should I react? I really don't know...
Seriously, its not the matter of credit hour. ..is the matter of passing the exams and passing with the result that I would like to obtain. I'm don't need a good result as I know I'm not qualified to hope more. Just a little more than passing the exam, is not to much I think??!!
But, everyone seems wanting me to fail my exams. ....what should I do? I did everything to scure my result. I'm not the one who study last minute, easily forget about books, don't attend class, etc. This is all because of ambition. Hope to be a succesful person in future.
Last few days, I saw some posting on facebook. My friend was dissapointed of his exam and one of his friend was commenting state that 'you sure pass...don't worry'. ...is that the words that he would like to have? I think no...he would like to have flying colour and not just a pass.
Another terrible thing...really ridiculous. My friend was worry about her land law, keep asking me whether she will pass the exam or not. Actually, her result was double of mine. Me, is the one who shoud be worried and not her. Crying for nights had cool me down and side everything aside to comtinue burn mid-night oil STUDY!!! She broke my mood. Aiyo....I was trying soooo hard and.... Walao!!! Geram betul!!!
Anyway, JL is not that easily be influence. She will always keep her prinple on hand.
Gambette!!!!
All exams, I try my best to attempt the question.
All exams, I try to finish all question in time.
All exams, I try to take care of my health and not to skip the exam.
This hardwork had follow me for 14 year of my 'student' days. And now, friends tell me. Never mind, you can definitely go for your attachment. ....how should I react? I really don't know...
Seriously, its not the matter of credit hour. ..is the matter of passing the exams and passing with the result that I would like to obtain. I'm don't need a good result as I know I'm not qualified to hope more. Just a little more than passing the exam, is not to much I think??!!
But, everyone seems wanting me to fail my exams. ....what should I do? I did everything to scure my result. I'm not the one who study last minute, easily forget about books, don't attend class, etc. This is all because of ambition. Hope to be a succesful person in future.
Last few days, I saw some posting on facebook. My friend was dissapointed of his exam and one of his friend was commenting state that 'you sure pass...don't worry'. ...is that the words that he would like to have? I think no...he would like to have flying colour and not just a pass.
Another terrible thing...really ridiculous. My friend was worry about her land law, keep asking me whether she will pass the exam or not. Actually, her result was double of mine. Me, is the one who shoud be worried and not her. Crying for nights had cool me down and side everything aside to comtinue burn mid-night oil STUDY!!! She broke my mood. Aiyo....I was trying soooo hard and.... Walao!!! Geram betul!!!
Anyway, JL is not that easily be influence. She will always keep her prinple on hand.
Gambette!!!!
Friday, September 12, 2008
Terrible & Horrible week
Bad mode blog again :P Don't know why being so emotional for this few years? Did I change? Then, it would be a non-benefit changes. I want to be a happy-go-lucky Jia Lian again. I try to identified when did I change and the cause of it. ....I get no answer.
....the breaking-up with ex-boyfriend?
....the pressure of being squash club president?
....stress in Gamma subjects??
....the pressure of being aikido club president?
....stress in Delta subjects?
....environment...no idea of that.
Since no solution can be made, I have to always stand up strong to defend it. My 'white cell' is getting weaker and weaker now. No control over it. Knowing that, one day, I will get mad of myself. :(
The week had started badly as one of my course mate called. He instructed this and that. ...really tak 'syok' ok.!!! Its 8am, if that call would came from mum, then 'bigger' eyes will blink during lecture. Failing to say NO, been bullied. 'breathless'...
Neither class nor home happiness raise. I really don't know where I should go. Home was so noisy, dirty sinki, dirty toilet, dirty floor, incorporative housemates etc. I being cleaning the home for months. I'm also an ordinary student who have assignment, classes, avtivity blah blah blah~ I not that 'kira-kira' type of people, if I can, then I will do. But, I'm sick of it already. Call for a meeting, all don't want to attend rather sitting in the room doing nothing. Huh!!
Not only house was bad, room was also as terrible. Noise coming out all the way...even I'm so busy. Now, I undestand what it means with 'treat a person good means treat yourself badly'. ..feeling very noisy and unconfortable!! :'(
Result also release this week. I got a terrible result, no idea how finals will going to be any more. ...scary feeling came to mind continuesly. :( ....NO!! A Mi Tou Hut!
....the breaking-up with ex-boyfriend?
....the pressure of being squash club president?
....stress in Gamma subjects??
....the pressure of being aikido club president?
....stress in Delta subjects?
....environment...no idea of that.
Since no solution can be made, I have to always stand up strong to defend it. My 'white cell' is getting weaker and weaker now. No control over it. Knowing that, one day, I will get mad of myself. :(
The week had started badly as one of my course mate called. He instructed this and that. ...really tak 'syok' ok.!!! Its 8am, if that call would came from mum, then 'bigger' eyes will blink during lecture. Failing to say NO, been bullied. 'breathless'...
Neither class nor home happiness raise. I really don't know where I should go. Home was so noisy, dirty sinki, dirty toilet, dirty floor, incorporative housemates etc. I being cleaning the home for months. I'm also an ordinary student who have assignment, classes, avtivity blah blah blah~ I not that 'kira-kira' type of people, if I can, then I will do. But, I'm sick of it already. Call for a meeting, all don't want to attend rather sitting in the room doing nothing. Huh!!
Not only house was bad, room was also as terrible. Noise coming out all the way...even I'm so busy. Now, I undestand what it means with 'treat a person good means treat yourself badly'. ..feeling very noisy and unconfortable!! :'(
Result also release this week. I got a terrible result, no idea how finals will going to be any more. ...scary feeling came to mind continuesly. :( ....NO!! A Mi Tou Hut!
Monday, September 8, 2008
Obligation of a STUDENT
A student must attend classes.
A student must study for examination.
A student must complete every homework.
Every human being have less than 20 years to be a student. From the age of 7 till most probable 23 or 24, the duration is not long. It only occupied a little portion of you life time. Although it was a small small portion, the time going though it seems to be sooo long that everyone dislike being a student.
Seriously, 90% of children don't like to study. No one born to love books. Its just an obligation of daily life. Stepping into University does not mean that they are book worms and love books so much that make them score with flying colours. Expecially attending lectures and tutorials, everyone do not want to listen to a 'mengantuk' lecturer with so called 'irritating' smile that was shown. ..or even scolding for the late of class.
But, no one have the choice to avoid. Attending class is an obligation for a student. If you don't attend, its your fault. Don't make it a trouble for others. I seriously dislike it so much. What? Sms-ing me?? Calling me??? What is this? Untill the barring list is out only you instruct this and that?
I also don't like to go for class. Everyone knows, I can't wake up even at 5pm though it is a 8/9am class. Although I'm pysically awake but psychologically I'm still in dreamland. I still follow the time table. Who don't want to sleep without on-ing the alarm clocks, disturbance of the morning cock, awaken by room mate's door cracking sound and so on. People like me even don't like to walk with my legs to campus. But, what can I do? I don't go to class? Am I that hardworking? Frankly speaking, my mind is always absent during the lecture. I'm only there to copy all the notes and take it home. Then it will be freezing under my bed till the day before the examination. Its sound meaningless of attending lectures like that. The attendance that count, I have no choice but to go. I don't trouble people for signing, I also don't hope to signing for others. Therefore, I must always help myself.
Not to say that I'm selfish that I don't help others. I'm the person that always keep to my own principle. So sorry, if I hurt you as a reader of my blog. But, this obligation may not stay any longer. Just a few years and its over. We GAMBETTE together!!!
A student must study for examination.
A student must complete every homework.
Every human being have less than 20 years to be a student. From the age of 7 till most probable 23 or 24, the duration is not long. It only occupied a little portion of you life time. Although it was a small small portion, the time going though it seems to be sooo long that everyone dislike being a student.
Seriously, 90% of children don't like to study. No one born to love books. Its just an obligation of daily life. Stepping into University does not mean that they are book worms and love books so much that make them score with flying colours. Expecially attending lectures and tutorials, everyone do not want to listen to a 'mengantuk' lecturer with so called 'irritating' smile that was shown. ..or even scolding for the late of class.
But, no one have the choice to avoid. Attending class is an obligation for a student. If you don't attend, its your fault. Don't make it a trouble for others. I seriously dislike it so much. What? Sms-ing me?? Calling me??? What is this? Untill the barring list is out only you instruct this and that?
I also don't like to go for class. Everyone knows, I can't wake up even at 5pm though it is a 8/9am class. Although I'm pysically awake but psychologically I'm still in dreamland. I still follow the time table. Who don't want to sleep without on-ing the alarm clocks, disturbance of the morning cock, awaken by room mate's door cracking sound and so on. People like me even don't like to walk with my legs to campus. But, what can I do? I don't go to class? Am I that hardworking? Frankly speaking, my mind is always absent during the lecture. I'm only there to copy all the notes and take it home. Then it will be freezing under my bed till the day before the examination. Its sound meaningless of attending lectures like that. The attendance that count, I have no choice but to go. I don't trouble people for signing, I also don't hope to signing for others. Therefore, I must always help myself.
Not to say that I'm selfish that I don't help others. I'm the person that always keep to my own principle. So sorry, if I hurt you as a reader of my blog. But, this obligation may not stay any longer. Just a few years and its over. We GAMBETTE together!!!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Very SIEN aahhhhh!!!!!
walao!! cukup SIEN SIEN SIENZZZ!!! Felt so 'sien'. I mean me being so sien... Sleep sien, shopping sien, jogging sien, cleaning sien, chatting sien, study LAGI sien. Why Why why??? Big problem!! whole day no mood...every day sien. The meaning of life did not exist anymore. This feeling only exist on old age category of people and not a young people like me. OMG!! What happen?? Am I feeling unwell? My health fine...no headache nothing. Then how came my mood like a cancer patient or...haih... One word...Sien la... Tell me what to do!! I need something to boost my spirit!!!
Besides, Malacca really a dead city. Nothing for me to do, play or even enjoy. Huh!! Sien ah!!! ...place I mostly go are buffet reastaurant, sushi king (if got money), jusco, mahkota, pahlawan, satay celup, and jonker street. That's all. Don't like kareaoke....say NO to Go-Go. Went to play pool before, but don't think will play it again. Shopping mall also smaller then quuesbay nor gurney...not even half of them. And, all the item are almost the same. I better go back penang and get it since my parents paying for it hehe~
Sudah Bosan GILA~ Tak ada orang di rumah lagi, nanti saya naik gila pun tak ada orang hantar ke tanjung rambutan. ...sangat kesian betul :((
Besides, Malacca really a dead city. Nothing for me to do, play or even enjoy. Huh!! Sien ah!!! ...place I mostly go are buffet reastaurant, sushi king (if got money), jusco, mahkota, pahlawan, satay celup, and jonker street. That's all. Don't like kareaoke....say NO to Go-Go. Went to play pool before, but don't think will play it again. Shopping mall also smaller then quuesbay nor gurney...not even half of them. And, all the item are almost the same. I better go back penang and get it since my parents paying for it hehe~
Sudah Bosan GILA~ Tak ada orang di rumah lagi, nanti saya naik gila pun tak ada orang hantar ke tanjung rambutan. ...sangat kesian betul :((
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Desperate girl ^^
...noticing me?? Starting to get closer and closer to you. Following your shadow is always a wonder for me. You might not notice anyway. Yesterday, I think you purposely flip back to get me up. ^^ ..ada orang naik miang dah! haha! Actually, I'm happily out there catching your front view as I usually peep you from the back. Though there is almost 0% for us to be friends, I still dream so much. You emotion, action, stlye, speech and character will always in my memory. Can't be deleted. Don't know how I fall so much. Don't know why its you. Don't know the reason. ...first time being so unreasonable, ilogical, irrational blah blah blah~ Maybe I will find the reason far later...if I remember you. :)
...seems like this girl been prepared to start a relationship uh! I hope so much but get so less :P One of my friend tell me she been presure this few days because of guys. ..u know how much I hope to be as attractive as you. But, me?? ....chiu...I bad girl la...always get eyes out of me.
...seems like this girl been prepared to start a relationship uh! I hope so much but get so less :P One of my friend tell me she been presure this few days because of guys. ..u know how much I hope to be as attractive as you. But, me?? ....chiu...I bad girl la...always get eyes out of me.
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