Bad mode blog again :P Don't know why being so emotional for this few years? Did I change? Then, it would be a non-benefit changes. I want to be a happy-go-lucky Jia Lian again. I try to identified when did I change and the cause of it. ....I get no answer.
....the breaking-up with ex-boyfriend?
....the pressure of being squash club president?
....stress in Gamma subjects??
....the pressure of being aikido club president?
....stress in Delta subjects?
....environment...no idea of that.
Since no solution can be made, I have to always stand up strong to defend it. My 'white cell' is getting weaker and weaker now. No control over it. Knowing that, one day, I will get mad of myself. :(
The week had started badly as one of my course mate called. He instructed this and that. ...really tak 'syok' ok.!!! Its 8am, if that call would came from mum, then 'bigger' eyes will blink during lecture. Failing to say NO, been bullied. 'breathless'...
Neither class nor home happiness raise. I really don't know where I should go. Home was so noisy, dirty sinki, dirty toilet, dirty floor, incorporative housemates etc. I being cleaning the home for months. I'm also an ordinary student who have assignment, classes, avtivity blah blah blah~ I not that 'kira-kira' type of people, if I can, then I will do. But, I'm sick of it already. Call for a meeting, all don't want to attend rather sitting in the room doing nothing. Huh!!
Not only house was bad, room was also as terrible. Noise coming out all the way...even I'm so busy. Now, I undestand what it means with 'treat a person good means treat yourself badly'. ..feeling very noisy and unconfortable!! :'(
Result also release this week. I got a terrible result, no idea how finals will going to be any more. ...scary feeling came to mind continuesly. :( ....NO!! A Mi Tou Hut!
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