Unknown Romance

Months ago, just a click....he hold me alive!

It was so secure lying on his big big shoulder...

The moment he rub my short brown hair, was lovely...

Deepest, he pluck me in, getting me so warm and comfortable!

...a feeling that never end!

Now, his shadow is gradually getting further and untouchable.

I no longer could feel his heartbeat which awake me, starting up my day with a smile.

I keep on looking and reading at those previous messages...to hold myself firm.

And...I know pretty sure that he is not here anymore longer.

A decision to leave was hard....but I will have to move on with life.

I will have to control my destination....to my dreams~

A word that I dislike the most "Goodbye". *tears flooding*

A straight road or a slanting road?

Chambering completed , it should be "HOORAY"!! .... its time to leave, to run on a better career track. I feel all the stress all around me. I'm not competent enough to be marketable, I know it myself! Anyhow, I need to learn how to swim without my master's guidance.

Finally, I stand the pressure until the end of the day! I'm super happy that I could leave the most sadness place (Penang) anytime I wish. As what I plan months before......

I then bravely applied jobs from varies place. Its all on the process and....guess what? I got all with good replies even with immediate interview. I suppose to be happy and looking forward for the interviews instead....I feel the pressure to be so grave! .....feel like something stuck on my throat.

Going to a dark jungle.....

No doubt that I take into consideration of my love one but I can't be leaving my footstep behind...right? One day or some how, the end may not be as what I expected or some obstacle fall on us. I did try my very best to keep this wonderful....I will have no regrets. Sound stupid uh? But i just miss him, miss him so much....

I need more bravery to go further, can anyone tell me where can I get this power? I'm not greedy, just a little, as little as a bite of kiss...

Just a hug, could let me run more than a mile....this is more grateful love are.....!!!

Run away Path!

Yesterday, a foolish morning!

Happen in front of a bunch of lawyers....

Happen in front of some friends....

Happen on me, be so stress out on my face!

Case was adjourned! That's good and its "FATE"!

...super terrible man!! "What the hell" keep poping out from my head!

Settled by just a second of telling the truth.....phew!

Luckieee! :) :) :)

A surprise location for dinner, open my mind!

A peaceful wind, sharp(en) my ears!

A cross over "melting" river, hold my heart!

Mr. Blogger, I really scare that I will lost control. I control myself very well not to fall in love but I might fail if it continues...... He was like a worm in my stomach or a cell in the brain that could easily detect me. Couldn't imagine, couldn't believe, just couldn't get this logic....! HOW CAN HE READS ME??!!

Honestly, the feeling was so comfortable. Pretty good, I mean it!

Now a days, he is driving me crazy :)

.....should there be a day?!

Dreaming so hard for it! *red chick*

My valentine

I got a very good gift from a person that I most respect. Although it is not tangible goods, the most sincere words that touched my heart. He give me almost all the motivation. Maybe its short and simple but very precise and so wise that I would feel "its so right". I thank him that I could make life goes on with wonderful colours now. It is really hard to walk alone, everyone knows! I will have to learn, I must be patient to get to that stage *tears dropping*.

Sad to say that 2011 valentine is the most lonely one! I just could not imagine myself sitting alone along the beach side staring at the beautiful Penang bridge :) There was so many memories pop-ing off my mind until the sky flash me off! But, the rain did not wash away all the sadness or memories :( I just feel like running away....instead running away from the rain, what a pitiful day! The most idiot thing of all is "I STILL HAVE TO BE HOME"!

Only at that moment I realized the life of mine is in a "big mess". There is no way to edit or undo. ...just been thinking where to hide and avoid! This is not who I am!! But it is the only way that I'm keep thinking.... Another 2 months to go and I will be done! I must be patient and cool to wait for God to do the needful for me, that is all I could wish!

Next stage of life

Time flies!

Tomorrow, my first day of employment! Almost 2 months of holiday, weaken my discipline life style. Everything must begin al over again, to be more hardworking! That's sounds bad :(

Many of my friends was asking me whether I feel excited or curious of entering into a new environment. ...hm! I stare....and answered 'nothing' but just scared to meet my master. Hopefully, she isn't too "scary" as to facial, physical and emotional. And, the most important is.....she won't scold me too often..keke~

At this moment, I can't do much but to prepare certain stuff for working purposes.

I washed the car

I ironed my clothes

I polish my shoe

I pack my bag and make sure bring everything to work!

I actually know nuts about working but I still don't border anyway..ehehe! ......I'm still on the mood to go out for a dinner at nippon till 10pm while my father is worrying, keep calling! ...haihzz!!! When I reach back, he yell at me telling me to go to bed NOW! wow....it was only 10.30pm, the night still young!!

Anyway, Good Luck & A;; The Best for Your Future :) Gambette!!!

Beautiful or cute?

......really...really don't understand, why she could have this kind of confidence?

I got a friend, either close nor non-related. All of her stuff, I mostly got it from certain people. Adding her on facebook, notice that she was so ignoring! Actually, I know that she isn't as simple girl as majority of my 'gang'. But, I didn't expect that it was so happening.

She is/was/ will not be beautiful!

She is/was/will not be pretty!

She is/was/will not be attractive!

She is/was/will not be CUTEE!!!!

I could act/ answer you as what you would like me to give you but please do know the limit! It was just as ignoring as stepping on a lump of dog shit! yaiks!!! (that's what people react!!)

One step at a time

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time

There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
On step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time

There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
On step at a time

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

Take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
On step at a time

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
On step at a time