Mind Bearer

I would like to scream!

There are times that along the beach path, tears flooding!

I tried very hard! result shows "FAIL".

It's very difficult to overcame pressure.

Everyone was telling me, I can do it.

I didn't doubt my ability and try once and twice.

.....for months, I still couldn't see what I could get.

I feel I'm wasting my time and energy doing useless staff.

I need money, that's why I'm doing so much thing.

I just using my hand to earn it.

I don't care what my parent, friends and relative say about it.

Determination be me that far!

It created my dream and I'm quite daring I would say.

Not only that, it must be even faster than what I plan!

My battery is low, heart is bleeding oledi :(

Can someone tell me what to do?!

Written story

The memories forever in my brain, I can't delete it.

The feeling follow me in the bottom of my heart, I keep it preciously.

The pain hunting me in and out, I can't leave it aside.

I'm very brave already!!

I stand up with my own legs and hands.

No one help me, no one did I cry to.

Happy that he sms-ed me. There was no hope or dream bordering me at that moment as I was enjoying myself in KL....had a super awesome trip! Thanks to the organizer, Pokok.

The moment he text me on the cancellation, a little disappointment deep in the heart. But, what to do? Work keep me focus and no where did I fall for. Finished up and went home, lovely saturday =) I like it!

A surprise pop up. God fix the appointment for me again! Finally, we met! I went with confident, no 1 could have did it as well as me. Leaving the kopitiam chair, I though it was done. But, he....rub-ed my hair for a second! What the hell!! Everything came on to my eyes. I don't know how to react. Serious man! I loss my conscious that it stopped me a minute.

Shit....! My whole day was gone, I could not stay focus on the newspaper, aikido class and workpapers.

Just a second could make me blank! Who do you think you are??! allow me to give him a punch...

HELP! I need some concentration on my work. Office table is pilling up with files on a monday. I have to get things done by tomorrow. God please release me! I want to be alone and stay away from him. He is nothing in my life or in my programme. Everything shall be dropped before 8am tomorrow! Add oill....~~~

Bleeding heart

I'm having a difficult time.

At work...

At home...

Even outing activities!

Everyone is trying to control me.

What is going on with me or maybe are they too free?

The person I hate the most is trying to control me.....just feel like slapping him!

I don't mind people back-step me but why don't the leader tell me directly?

Why he has to make you a middle man and forward all the messages?

Question marks wondering around me for the whole day......was irritating :(

I join it for self-rising purposes.

If you are making me out of my mode, then I have to take a way out!

I'm so sorry that I couldn't tolerate you anymore!

No Direction

Time has came that all my weaknesses cannot be curtain off.

I got a long tutorial from my boss this morning which awake me.

I definitely know myself well.

He is forcing me to face it all by myself!!!

He got the words INTO my body....

At the moment I return to my room,

my flooding tears drop!

A moment.....

I doubt my ability,

I have dreams to achieve and I must go on.

But...how?

Now how?

I need a direction please!!

Spelling the Secret

Not sure when it flies to me, but I'm controlling it very well. I should say" well done" to myself. I'm scared that one day I will loss control. Will I?

He is really very extremely treating me good. And, I'm pretty sure he is not my cup of tea. I shall be much more stronger and independent down the road. It is always my character to own 24 hours all by myself and I think I deserve 24 hours not lesser. May be some friends are leaving, may be my parents will leave me one day, may be I need a shoulder, a hand or a heart rubbish bin blah blah blah~ Just a feeling that is wrong! ...feeling like single is better, may have some emotional problem sometimes. Its always better than a bleeding heart.

A while ago, I send my sister to her boyfriend which I usually does.Looking back seeing them walk together....there goes the relationship. Mind playing the game again, such a foolish women I am.

I set my target and working very very hard to my dreams.

I will be strong. No one will kick me off the track.

Gambette Jia Lian!!!

White Dream

I'm facing it by myself.

I'm very brave and strong, I thought!

I honestly fall.

A night before my 1st day work, emo-ing start burning!

Start work day, got myself a big lump of dog shit under my shoe!

On the way back from work, my tyre flated!

Secondly, pandai pandai went to KL, misplace my things...

...lucky, someone keep it for me or not my purse will be gone!

Monday blue....friends book me for birthday this month :)

Don't know what they doing.....hope for something funny!

I wish to have a walking speaker not to be so clumsy, stupid and blur!

I always tell myself to work hard and go further but after I taken all the step, mistake will always came to me. A very sad scenario....

Someone help me :(

Doctor or Medicine?!

.....was caught with a terrible headache for 3 weeks!

Stop vomit, can bo?

I'm hungry :(

Even after consulting so many doctors, finally the specialist said

"Nothing in your brain, maybe your nerves to tense!"

What the hell?

I'm not with my master, I'm tension now?

God wasted my holiday man!!

I should not be on my bed at this kinda moment!!!

Maybe I miss the hug =_*!

I just need some energy to recover >.<

Can someone give me?! :D