Bleeding heart

I'm having a difficult time.

At work...

At home...

Even outing activities!

Everyone is trying to control me.

What is going on with me or maybe are they too free?

The person I hate the most is trying to control me.....just feel like slapping him!

I don't mind people back-step me but why don't the leader tell me directly?

Why he has to make you a middle man and forward all the messages?

Question marks wondering around me for the whole day......was irritating :(

I join it for self-rising purposes.

If you are making me out of my mode, then I have to take a way out!

I'm so sorry that I couldn't tolerate you anymore!

No Direction

Time has came that all my weaknesses cannot be curtain off.

I got a long tutorial from my boss this morning which awake me.

I definitely know myself well.

He is forcing me to face it all by myself!!!

He got the words INTO my body....

At the moment I return to my room,

my flooding tears drop!

A moment.....

I doubt my ability,

I have dreams to achieve and I must go on.

But...how?

Now how?

I need a direction please!!

Spelling the Secret

Not sure when it flies to me, but I'm controlling it very well. I should say" well done" to myself. I'm scared that one day I will loss control. Will I?

He is really very extremely treating me good. And, I'm pretty sure he is not my cup of tea. I shall be much more stronger and independent down the road. It is always my character to own 24 hours all by myself and I think I deserve 24 hours not lesser. May be some friends are leaving, may be my parents will leave me one day, may be I need a shoulder, a hand or a heart rubbish bin blah blah blah~ Just a feeling that is wrong! ...feeling like single is better, may have some emotional problem sometimes. Its always better than a bleeding heart.

A while ago, I send my sister to her boyfriend which I usually does.Looking back seeing them walk together....there goes the relationship. Mind playing the game again, such a foolish women I am.

I set my target and working very very hard to my dreams.

I will be strong. No one will kick me off the track.

Gambette Jia Lian!!!

White Dream

I'm facing it by myself.

I'm very brave and strong, I thought!

I honestly fall.

A night before my 1st day work, emo-ing start burning!

Start work day, got myself a big lump of dog shit under my shoe!

On the way back from work, my tyre flated!

Secondly, pandai pandai went to KL, misplace my things...

...lucky, someone keep it for me or not my purse will be gone!

Monday blue....friends book me for birthday this month :)

Don't know what they doing.....hope for something funny!

I wish to have a walking speaker not to be so clumsy, stupid and blur!

I always tell myself to work hard and go further but after I taken all the step, mistake will always came to me. A very sad scenario....

Someone help me :(

Doctor or Medicine?!

.....was caught with a terrible headache for 3 weeks!

Stop vomit, can bo?

I'm hungry :(

Even after consulting so many doctors, finally the specialist said

"Nothing in your brain, maybe your nerves to tense!"

What the hell?

I'm not with my master, I'm tension now?

God wasted my holiday man!!

I should not be on my bed at this kinda moment!!!

Maybe I miss the hug =_*!

I just need some energy to recover >.<

Can someone give me?! :D

Another option?

I had a bad week. ....feel like I'm living in my own world.

Hire in the room, talk less than 10 sentence a day.

I tried...very hard!

But it just useless!

I don't know what should I do man!!

There are too many things on my mind but there is no one that I could tell.

Even after telling, what will it be?

More confusing.....!!

I need a solution for it.

It's not any good to be a daughter, an employee or friend.

I want to get rid of all this.

I want to leave, let everything stay at it place.

Nothing can I change, only thing is ME.

I can change myself.

I'm not happy at all, in and out!

Need lots of help!! *crying*

Secret Occasion

The paper is gone!

A paper full of memories...

Staying up late at night searching for a crumble paper.

"STUPID" is a word to be used.

But...I just couldn't sleep without the paper lying on my bedside.

Two weeks of vocation, allowed me to lost myself.

I no longer could view it anymore :(

I don't believe...

Its not with me anymore!

I pray hard to get the paper back, dreams doesn't came true!

Please...please...please!! It not suppose to be like that!