White Dream

I'm facing it by myself.

I'm very brave and strong, I thought!

I honestly fall.

A night before my 1st day work, emo-ing start burning!

Start work day, got myself a big lump of dog shit under my shoe!

On the way back from work, my tyre flated!

Secondly, pandai pandai went to KL, misplace my things...

...lucky, someone keep it for me or not my purse will be gone!

Monday blue....friends book me for birthday this month :)

Don't know what they doing.....hope for something funny!

I wish to have a walking speaker not to be so clumsy, stupid and blur!

I always tell myself to work hard and go further but after I taken all the step, mistake will always came to me. A very sad scenario....

Someone help me :(

Doctor or Medicine?!

.....was caught with a terrible headache for 3 weeks!

Stop vomit, can bo?

I'm hungry :(

Even after consulting so many doctors, finally the specialist said

"Nothing in your brain, maybe your nerves to tense!"

What the hell?

I'm not with my master, I'm tension now?

God wasted my holiday man!!

I should not be on my bed at this kinda moment!!!

Maybe I miss the hug =_*!

I just need some energy to recover >.<

Can someone give me?! :D

Another option?

I had a bad week. ....feel like I'm living in my own world.

Hire in the room, talk less than 10 sentence a day.

I tried...very hard!

But it just useless!

I don't know what should I do man!!

There are too many things on my mind but there is no one that I could tell.

Even after telling, what will it be?

More confusing.....!!

I need a solution for it.

It's not any good to be a daughter, an employee or friend.

I want to get rid of all this.

I want to leave, let everything stay at it place.

Nothing can I change, only thing is ME.

I can change myself.

I'm not happy at all, in and out!

Need lots of help!! *crying*

Secret Occasion

The paper is gone!

A paper full of memories...

Staying up late at night searching for a crumble paper.

"STUPID" is a word to be used.

But...I just couldn't sleep without the paper lying on my bedside.

Two weeks of vocation, allowed me to lost myself.

I no longer could view it anymore :(

I don't believe...

Its not with me anymore!

I pray hard to get the paper back, dreams doesn't came true!

Please...please...please!! It not suppose to be like that!

Unknown Romance

Months ago, just a click....he hold me alive!

It was so secure lying on his big big shoulder...

The moment he rub my short brown hair, was lovely...

Deepest, he pluck me in, getting me so warm and comfortable!

...a feeling that never end!

Now, his shadow is gradually getting further and untouchable.

I no longer could feel his heartbeat which awake me, starting up my day with a smile.

I keep on looking and reading at those previous messages...to hold myself firm.

And...I know pretty sure that he is not here anymore longer.

A decision to leave was hard....but I will have to move on with life.

I will have to control my destination....to my dreams~

A word that I dislike the most "Goodbye". *tears flooding*

A straight road or a slanting road?

Chambering completed , it should be "HOORAY"!! .... its time to leave, to run on a better career track. I feel all the stress all around me. I'm not competent enough to be marketable, I know it myself! Anyhow, I need to learn how to swim without my master's guidance.

Finally, I stand the pressure until the end of the day! I'm super happy that I could leave the most sadness place (Penang) anytime I wish. As what I plan months before......

I then bravely applied jobs from varies place. Its all on the process and....guess what? I got all with good replies even with immediate interview. I suppose to be happy and looking forward for the interviews instead....I feel the pressure to be so grave! .....feel like something stuck on my throat.

Going to a dark jungle.....

No doubt that I take into consideration of my love one but I can't be leaving my footstep behind...right? One day or some how, the end may not be as what I expected or some obstacle fall on us. I did try my very best to keep this wonderful....I will have no regrets. Sound stupid uh? But i just miss him, miss him so much....

I need more bravery to go further, can anyone tell me where can I get this power? I'm not greedy, just a little, as little as a bite of kiss...

Just a hug, could let me run more than a mile....this is more grateful love are.....!!!

Run away Path!

Yesterday, a foolish morning!

Happen in front of a bunch of lawyers....

Happen in front of some friends....

Happen on me, be so stress out on my face!

Case was adjourned! That's good and its "FATE"!

...super terrible man!! "What the hell" keep poping out from my head!

Settled by just a second of telling the truth.....phew!

Luckieee! :) :) :)

A surprise location for dinner, open my mind!

A peaceful wind, sharp(en) my ears!

A cross over "melting" river, hold my heart!

Mr. Blogger, I really scare that I will lost control. I control myself very well not to fall in love but I might fail if it continues...... He was like a worm in my stomach or a cell in the brain that could easily detect me. Couldn't imagine, couldn't believe, just couldn't get this logic....! HOW CAN HE READS ME??!!

Honestly, the feeling was so comfortable. Pretty good, I mean it!

Now a days, he is driving me crazy :)

.....should there be a day?!

Dreaming so hard for it! *red chick*