I hate YOU!!!

Why why why? I don't want the memories anymore!!! Can anyone make me drunk? OMG!!! I'm having a terrible time!!!I HATE you, Mr Pang Jeng Min!!! Why you give me so much of the memories that I don't deserve it?? Now, I'm straggling so hard to get myself out.


My 2 years was not easy though, I tough I could do it. Only now, I realize I didn't do it in a clean and clear way. All the feeling came back without my control. I have no appetite to eat, cannot concentrate in my work, cannot focus well, cannot sleep etc. And, I wonder why I cannot drop my tears anymore? Did I finish my tears during the 2 years? aaaahhhhhh!!!!! Release ME!!!


I think I'm now feeling what he felt for the last 2 years. Now, I understand what my friends was explaining to me..."feng shui lun leow juan".


Anyhow, I have to get my own way out as what he did in the pass. I cannot be that selfish and greedy anymore. Its me who make the choice. GAMBETTE HENG JIA LIAN!!!

Why I have hard feelings?

wow...it being along time since I have my attachment, too busy to even login.
Now, having trouble, so seek space to express myself. ^.^

Start to realize that I'm a normal girl as well.

Last few days, I knew that my ex have a girlfriend already. At first I felt so happy for him, because I will not be the one anymore. I'm release!! However, bad feeling start developing before I go to bed. I don't know why. ...still love him or I'm being too greedy? I'm the one who is too selfish to bring myself back. And now.... Aiyo!!! I'm getting really mad!!!

Just after the break-up, I pray so hard for him to get his love one as soon as possible because I don't deserve all the things that he do for me. While, hope that in future he will be happier. But, now... OMG!! I don't know what should I do.

Anyway, I will continue praying for him and wish him all the best. Hope that he have the best of the best forever. ^^